Tethered to normalcy. Those are the words that came to me over the Christmas holiday at my family’s home in Upstate NY. Rochester and Bill. My life. Helped by the semblance of order in a pre-defined way. Maybe this is what God (and I) wanted for my unruly, wild, Spirit.
I was plunked down in a town that is so normal in ‘middle’ America and to a man who is solid and stable. With a creative heart and the guile to put that creativity to use in Corporate America there he stands with me at the midpoint of my life. Heart centered with a head that can lead just about anything or anyone.
He who found me in a group of preppy girls standing out like a wayward one with my “freak hat” on at the homogenous Catholic university that we attended and which had previously hosted Thomas Merton meditating on the ‘heart’ mountain. Back then Bill and I were 35 years ago in school, him telling me to take it off (the hat) as he nervously smiled at me in the cafeteria line.
I do fit in (assimilate) so well back home in Asheville with their tag line to keep it weird but wonder if it’s my dharma/karma or samara to stay there or to move on. We’ll see. That’s it for today. The Universe pushing me with big changes hovering this way or that. In what direction I am not sure. We are deciding together on what’s next. Mercury is Retrograde so I have a reprieve as we work together and try to sort it out, my highest Self with One.
Thy Will, I repeat this again as I did many decades before. ‘I surrender as I look with a watchful and hopeful eye to the coming days, months and year in 2017.’
Post Note: I read this to Bill and he tells me that he has always accepted the person that I am and that I am more normal than I let on and this is probably true. For the most part, my behavior quite staid and stable, my work as a nurse and my role as friend, daughter, wife, mother and grandmother.... And too maybe it is what we find most intriguing that we resist the most.
I was plunked down in a town that is so normal in ‘middle’ America and to a man who is solid and stable. With a creative heart and the guile to put that creativity to use in Corporate America there he stands with me at the midpoint of my life. Heart centered with a head that can lead just about anything or anyone.
He who found me in a group of preppy girls standing out like a wayward one with my “freak hat” on at the homogenous Catholic university that we attended and which had previously hosted Thomas Merton meditating on the ‘heart’ mountain. Back then Bill and I were 35 years ago in school, him telling me to take it off (the hat) as he nervously smiled at me in the cafeteria line.
I do fit in (assimilate) so well back home in Asheville with their tag line to keep it weird but wonder if it’s my dharma/karma or samara to stay there or to move on. We’ll see. That’s it for today. The Universe pushing me with big changes hovering this way or that. In what direction I am not sure. We are deciding together on what’s next. Mercury is Retrograde so I have a reprieve as we work together and try to sort it out, my highest Self with One.
Thy Will, I repeat this again as I did many decades before. ‘I surrender as I look with a watchful and hopeful eye to the coming days, months and year in 2017.’
Post Note: I read this to Bill and he tells me that he has always accepted the person that I am and that I am more normal than I let on and this is probably true. For the most part, my behavior quite staid and stable, my work as a nurse and my role as friend, daughter, wife, mother and grandmother.... And too maybe it is what we find most intriguing that we resist the most.
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