​Bethany, Christian and I make a small circle and after ‘talking shop’ about our respective fields we switch gears with Christian saying something about the three phases of the third eye meditation. He elaborates on what the phases are, vibration, light and inner work after noticing my blank stare.  I notice that I deliberately tune out learning the content of anything that requires memorization even though I generally am able to get the gist of things or at least I think I do.  Does this make me more of a kinesthetic learner, burned out from school, lazy or just learning-impaired, I don’t know, maybe a combo of all four.
 
Many images come through today and epiphanies on relationships. That they are less about the other person who we are ‘in love with’ and more about their meaningfulness in our lives and how the relationship has the potential (or not) to enhance our wellbeing and purpose in this lifetime. It sounds esoteric now as I write this but it made perfect sense as it came to me through the third eye meditation. (Bethany’s light is shining today and she seems so at ease. I likened this in part to a new relationship she is experiencing.)
 
I also see a leg that is by itself and think about how fragmented parts of me (especially legs) have come through in multiple weeks of this meditation.  I wonder if they represent parts of myself not integrated.  'Something to map', Christian would say. The familiar snake comes in but this time its staring at me with his or her tongue jutting in and out of its mouth.  I also witness myself today climbing down different staircases and as I descend each set, I see different people who are in my life: My parents, husband, friends.  I acknowledge each of them and they me before I descent further to greet more people. 
 
I see a lamb that I pet and then it becomes lamb chops and then wool for someone else to use, then a gutted animal that I put my hands in as I observed the blood from it.  I think of the psalms from church, “Lamb of God you take away the sins of the world have mercy on us…” And fittingly, at one point I am in a church which has a door in the back and one in the front open with a cross breeze.  The church is empty of people until a friend appears who tells me that it is time to move on.  I wonder, move on from what?  
 
I see myself being held by my highest self, staring face to face into my own eyes.  I am given reassurance that everything is ok just as it is.  At the crown chakra, mine is wide open as I peer down into my brains and then witness what looks like a chakra clearing of debris and darkness. 

Week 14 This morning text after text comes in before I am even awake from fellow meditators saying that they won't be able to attend today  Each giving various reasons why not. I wonder as I get dressed if anyone will be at the Bahai Center when I arrive.  (We rent out our space from the Bahai's and meditate in their upstairs worship room.)

The sun is beaming in as I enter and find Judy and Christian waiting to start both arranging chairs so that we can sit on the floor around the rock and candle that Christian has placed in the middle.  Christian, in passing mentions that he has had an aversion lately to dairy and meat.  We all discuss our dietary particularities before we start.  

Without much pretense the room gets quiet and we go inward.  I am very much aware of my 'monkey mind' and can hear the grumble of my stomach, children playing outside and even the squawking of birds.  I try to be still and not disturb the other two and find that I am even more self conscious today of any movements in our intimate group.  Christian gives us permission to move our posture but I don't as I don't want to have to start over again.

I try to avoid going to my imagination as images come through.  Looking at an ant through a magnifying glass and seeing it as significant and large. A donkey that I pet at its mane, a lemon that I see and smell in vivid detail and color.  These images drop away as I go back to the friction breath.  I sit in the darkness of the third eye.  I see hues of color that I cannot identify.  Then I see a leather hard element and try to think what animal it is and then realize it's the earth.  I pet it as it becomes a turtle shell.  My mind goes to worry about protecting the earth from attacks.  The potential for a nuclear one comes through and I think once again of Iodine.  (For some reason getting prepared and having Iodine in my home is something that I have been thinking of of recent and I am not sure why(?))  Numbers float by, 26 seems significant years or months I don't know but then three years comes through and the numbers don't calculate out.  Standing in togetherness as a nation is so important my heart is screaming.  All one. United we Stand...Let us not be vulnerable to an outside attack by a crumbling of our inner stability.  

Christian directs us to our throat and I am already there seeing a chain around my neck.  As we go to the heart space, mine feels wide open like my heart is exposed and rhythmically beating.  At the charge area I see money--dollars that I am sitting on and then he has us go upward and I see a purple vertical line off to the right as I follow it up over my crown chakra.  I see gold rays of light and higher beings. I call in Archangel Gabriel to help me communicate.  Help me to moderate when to speak and when to be silent.  I get a confirmation of sorts as we come back into the room.  

"Choose Love is the main message" I don't figure the significance of this meaning until now as I write this.  Yesterday was Valentine's Day.  Go Figure...