Christian had asked either Shanti or Santosha to lead us given their years of experience with this practice. There was small talk before we started that mainly focused on what's happening with the new presidential administration. I commented that meditation is needed more than ever to raise our vibrations.
Shanti forgot to take her shoes off and she complemented Santosha for remembering to do this. He shrugged his shoulders and kind of stared at her like she should be able to remember this. She also forgot to take off her sunglasses which got us all smiling. He was firm with her when she started to make critical statements about the guards in the prison where he works. He tersely said, "Don't start." She looked impishly at him as I suggested we close our eyes.
At first I worried that Shanti, who was leading us was going to talk too much. She seemed in her head when we started, but she fell into the meditation quickly and when she did, her prompts were perfect. I went deeply into my third eye listening to her soft, melodious voice and also fell into the comfort of the long expanses of silence. I found that I was spiraling back into my eye at rapid, dizzying speeds. My right hip was aching and my foot was asleep but I was determined to remain very still as I knew that moving would not only affect me but also our small group.
I saw lots of ants at my heart center and thought of what they represent to the Native Americans, patience. A bit later, when Shanti directed us above our crown chakra, I saw myself hovering with the rest of our small group, then saw the other members of our group not present with us today and then this vision of the expanded ClairVision Community throughout the world. I saw a crystallized version of all of us made of white quartz. Then I looked down into my lower self and saw another version of me with a broken hip and heard a voice (Samuels?) saying, "Stay here. You can't help her." Like I was somehow separate from my higher, spiritual self. I wanted this image below to be healed, merged or to go away.
I shared this after the meditation and Shanti said that Samel tells a story about an ant with a broken leg and how we can't help him. "It is just a broken leg." He would say. Also she talked about crystals and their meaning. I was little freaked out when she mentioned ants, a broken limb and crystals, all things I had seen today. Shanti also talked about the significance of meditation and how it prepares us for the next phase of existence once the body is no longer here. We meditate to prepare us for death.
For some reason I thought of one of my patients who died a few years ago by falling to their death breaking their hip and how I couldn't save them. Although maybe it had to do with me.
I find it all dizzying trying to figure out the meaning . I do know that I would like to hear the podcast where Samuel talks about the ant, its broken leg and the story around this. Maybe then I will have some answers. More likely though, it will just leave me with questions...
Ants in your dream are the omen of hard work, rewarded effort, honor, gain, and a financially good situation. http://www.auntyflo.com/dream-dictionary/ants