Then I see an owl, turkey and pelican all at once and the feathers of these birds become a headdress that is now sitting on Christian's head. He appears briefly as a Native American. The name Thomas comes up and I wonder if this Christian's middle name.
Then nothingness sweeps through as I am reminded to go to the friction breath. We are invited to connect with the group and I go to each one. As an empath, I can feel the porousness of their essence and the emotions that lie on top of them today. I feel for a moment the collective of what each one of us is carrying. An intermingling of the light and darkness that resides within ourselves.
I go to this space of 'heaven' beyond the physical realm and am invited in by my (my husband and my) friend Ken. He passed in August 2016. He says "come in there's room". We smile at his humor. He tells me that he misses his wife and children. I had thought of Cindy, his wife this morning and how even though she has been forced to move on, she still misses him terribly. It is time for me to leave this realm and we are now at the throat chakra and once again it is vivid. I see this black space there and think of the angel card that I had drawn at random this morning. Metatron and how I need a chakra clearing. I invite him, Metatron in to clear my throat. The darkness fades to light and then briefly back again. This space is fluid. There is some constriction when I get to the back of my heart pillow and a coldness there, and at my belly I want to scream as I feel trapped in this space. There's a limb that I am bandaging up and think of how the Mayan do bone setting with a stick that they rub on the broken bone to make it straight. I intuit the pain that one must feel when this is done as I move on.
As we move from the charge area to the crown I see a healing of my chakras taking place and a crystal of a different color comes through at each marking. I then decide to share a different one with my maternal ancestors both past and present. My mother is the last and as she gets a red ruby, she thanks me in the dignified way that she has by saying my given name, Kristin. (Afterwards I remember how garnet the poor version of the ruby is her actual birthstone and how she doesn't like this stone.)
At the crown chakra I see all the crystal stones that of clear, yellow, blue and red as part of a headband that I am now wearing. The headdress of Christian that resided at the beginning has now become this head band that I am bequeath to wear.
We later speak of our experiences and Bethany tells us that she saw a little zen master. that simply said that his name is Thomas. I interrupt by saying. "Wow the name Thomas came to me too (and I point at Christian) and I was told that it is your middle name."
He doesn't seem at all surprised as he tells us that indeed this is his middle name and I find this both strange and comforting as I collect my belongings and leave.