I did have some physical discomfort; my right knee felt stiff and started to get painful as I tried to hold myself still. I moved more than usual as I focused on the answers that just weren’t coming. I did see a butterfly which I tend to associate with transformation and also an elephant at the end of the sit—which made me think of Ganesh, The Hindu God of overcoming obstacles.
I felt a connection with the people in the room and was called out of my musing when I felt the room sync together. The quiet so palpable, that it made me more present as I fervently took it in with wow we are syncing again this week. At the end, as a group we were to join in as a cathedra and I envisioned each of us holding a sparkler. We had talked before we started today about the solar eclipse and the dark permeating through the light and conversely how the moon (lunar eclipse) works in an opposite way which seemed to some a more auspicious occurrence.
The yin and yang of life can make anyone seasick but at this time of year even more so with the back to back eclipses (solar) lined geographically just so with where we are—Christian asked us to practice holding our energy above the head, so that we can get beyond the particles (astral debris) on earth that can laden us down.
I felt hopeful today that even though it is sometimes difficult for me to bring my energy above my head, I can do so with help from the energetic structure of the cathedra. I also have Ganesh around to buffer me from the muck of life as I make my way slowly forward trying to transform from the caterpillar to the butterfly which happily seemed to be happening given the sight of the butterfly today.
I came today thinking that this would be my last day with the group as we are changing days to one that I thought wouldn't work for me. This may not be true, we may continue on a day that I can come. Another unanswered question, but for now I think I will just find peace in the not knowing how life will unfold next.