I haven't been sleeping well. I fall asleep quickly and it's a hard sleep. Actually harder than I sleep at home. But I wake up at 3a and can't go back to sleep. I lie awake because there isn't much else to do. It's dark and there are no electronics or lights. It is a good thing this peacefulness, this stillness, but daunting not to be able to do or be distracted by my awaken-ess.
Last night after dinner I hurried to the shower after dark. I took the winding steps that lead to the solar shower around where the greenery, plants and foliage lay, around the chickens and goat and on the other side the hammock and little building that houses more rooms for the volunteers. I was little nervous walking about as one of the women had seen a scorpion in the shower earlier in the day but I wanted to take a warm shower and this seemed the best time to fit it in.
So far all of my showers have been at 5a--invigorating and cold, not soothing. I needed a soothing one last night. I placed my headlamp in the little carved out shelf in the shower area that is cave like. Two bamboo made doors on either side were shut tight by a piece of wood that closed across them. My lamp was shining so that I could see and my body was so clearly outlined on the opposite wall that I couldn't help but stare at it's silhouette. Its movements as I washed my body and hair. The warm water scrubbed away the day and the debris that had accumulated, for how long I am not sure. I just know afterwards I felt happy, cleansed and refresh to begin again.
We gather today after a hardy breakfast of hardboiled eggs, tortillas, jam, honey and fruit with herbal tea made from pineapple stems and ginger, or blessed cups of coffee. We shuffle up to Lakshmi temple. Lakshmi the Goddess of luck and good fortune.
Aimee smiles at us like we are her young children or friends and in many ways we are. She is shepherding us through our stories by asking us to write. The journey best guided by her loving care.
She loves to quote and I think she tells us this is from Byron Katie.
"Argue for the limitations and you can keep them."
We are to write out Reflection "I", Projection "you" I start mine..
"Life suffocates me."
"I suffocate me." and it goes from there....
Then we are asked to Reclaim our Story....I write
Because I saved my 2 year old brother from drowning,
I can see the precariousness of Life
Because I lived through multiple car accidents one in which the car ran over me,
I can have a spiritual belief in a higher power
Because my mother lived after a massive hemorrhage the day before my daughter was born,
I believe in the preciousness of life.
Because I almost touched the burning cord of the toaster during the house fire,
I understand the magnitude of our choices,
Because I hears so many sad incredibly sorrowful stories in my work,
I have gratitude each day for my own life...
Last night after dinner I hurried to the shower after dark. I took the winding steps that lead to the solar shower around where the greenery, plants and foliage lay, around the chickens and goat and on the other side the hammock and little building that houses more rooms for the volunteers. I was little nervous walking about as one of the women had seen a scorpion in the shower earlier in the day but I wanted to take a warm shower and this seemed the best time to fit it in.
So far all of my showers have been at 5a--invigorating and cold, not soothing. I needed a soothing one last night. I placed my headlamp in the little carved out shelf in the shower area that is cave like. Two bamboo made doors on either side were shut tight by a piece of wood that closed across them. My lamp was shining so that I could see and my body was so clearly outlined on the opposite wall that I couldn't help but stare at it's silhouette. Its movements as I washed my body and hair. The warm water scrubbed away the day and the debris that had accumulated, for how long I am not sure. I just know afterwards I felt happy, cleansed and refresh to begin again.
We gather today after a hardy breakfast of hardboiled eggs, tortillas, jam, honey and fruit with herbal tea made from pineapple stems and ginger, or blessed cups of coffee. We shuffle up to Lakshmi temple. Lakshmi the Goddess of luck and good fortune.
Aimee smiles at us like we are her young children or friends and in many ways we are. She is shepherding us through our stories by asking us to write. The journey best guided by her loving care.
She loves to quote and I think she tells us this is from Byron Katie.
"Argue for the limitations and you can keep them."
We are to write out Reflection "I", Projection "you" I start mine..
"Life suffocates me."
"I suffocate me." and it goes from there....
Then we are asked to Reclaim our Story....I write
Because I saved my 2 year old brother from drowning,
I can see the precariousness of Life
Because I lived through multiple car accidents one in which the car ran over me,
I can have a spiritual belief in a higher power
Because my mother lived after a massive hemorrhage the day before my daughter was born,
I believe in the preciousness of life.
Because I almost touched the burning cord of the toaster during the house fire,
I understand the magnitude of our choices,
Because I hears so many sad incredibly sorrowful stories in my work,
I have gratitude each day for my own life...
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