That night I did some "healing" journeying a Phoenix Rising Yoga Therapy technique I often do on myself but this time with the purpose of finding my spirit animal. An Elephant came through (Ganesh) The Indian God of overcoming obstacles. I saw the wrinkles of his thick trunk and legs and even went over to touch it. It was 130a and I was having insomnia but had entered this space between wake and sleep. After seeing and touching Ganesha's wrinkly body, I fell into a deep sleep.
In my dream that night I was being stalked by a rat. I had trouble evading it. It kept following me around. A rat!? I thought, the worst animal! My shadow?
But lastly in the morning my thought was a reassuring one,
Aimee might be right, this work might better be done with a guide. :-]