Santosha is a sanskrit word that means contentment, and in the last few weeks since returning from Guatemala, I have contemplated its meaning...
May 14, 2016: The work week thankfully has ended, and its Saturday. My energy is inward, and the effort to bring it outward is taxing even though I had very few clients and many cancelations. I am feeling that the Universe has my back, and I am grateful that I can be in a state of reflection.
This morning, I am scheduled to run a 5k. My only wish is to enjoy it and be happy with the outcome. As I think back to the Yoga Forest and what I learned I remember Ingrid’s Mayan reading. She says that in the future I need to be happy and comfortable. I had said this to a friend who is a therapist recently and she dismissed these words with, “Do you know how many times I hear that from people?”
Ingrid reassured me though that being happy is necessary for my equilibrium and stability as I move forward. I will embrace this. Happiness and comfort. I am worthy of this. In the words of Joseph Campbell in the “The Power of Myth” in an interview with Bill Moyer he writes, “The way to find out your happiness is to be aware of the moments when you feel most happy—not excited, thrilled but deeply happy. This requires some self-analysis. Stay with it no matter what people tell you. Follow your bliss.”(Page 193.)
I will do this. I will start to notice these feelings when they come up. I will mark them and follow them. Follow them to where they lead me. Follow them to where I need to be. When you follow your bliss there are dangers involved and outcomes obscured. Moving beyond the ancestry familiar into the land of unchartered and unknown. The trek foraging for ground and paving the way to the new is never tread lightly but with a sure foot of hope and care towards ones’ destiny and for all destinies to come.
Later in the day...
I ran my second Earthfare 5k today and did better. Did a lot better! As I was running I kept me eye on my shadow which was in front of me. Just where it needed to be. I think I placed 4th for my age group. Not bad, I reflected as I started the walk home. My neighbor Suzanne had dropped me off earlier so I was without my car. Walking the mile or two towards home I had my hands full with the freebies of coconut water and quinoa chips and other stuff. I walked up the hill past the projects, a poorer section of town.
A man was sitting on a bench as I crossed by and looked over to me and said, Whatyougot there? He gazed curiously at the box I was carrying. “Food,” I smiled, “I ran a race.” “You win?” No, but I had fun and I did well.” Another smile from me, but he had already looked away his mind elsewhere. I wasn’t a winner, story over it seemed. As I walked on I felt happy and contentment and thought to myself about my path and the steps I am taking in my life now and how if the path was safe then it really wouldn’t be very interesting at all. It is perfect just as it is.
May 14, 2016: The work week thankfully has ended, and its Saturday. My energy is inward, and the effort to bring it outward is taxing even though I had very few clients and many cancelations. I am feeling that the Universe has my back, and I am grateful that I can be in a state of reflection.
This morning, I am scheduled to run a 5k. My only wish is to enjoy it and be happy with the outcome. As I think back to the Yoga Forest and what I learned I remember Ingrid’s Mayan reading. She says that in the future I need to be happy and comfortable. I had said this to a friend who is a therapist recently and she dismissed these words with, “Do you know how many times I hear that from people?”
Ingrid reassured me though that being happy is necessary for my equilibrium and stability as I move forward. I will embrace this. Happiness and comfort. I am worthy of this. In the words of Joseph Campbell in the “The Power of Myth” in an interview with Bill Moyer he writes, “The way to find out your happiness is to be aware of the moments when you feel most happy—not excited, thrilled but deeply happy. This requires some self-analysis. Stay with it no matter what people tell you. Follow your bliss.”(Page 193.)
I will do this. I will start to notice these feelings when they come up. I will mark them and follow them. Follow them to where they lead me. Follow them to where I need to be. When you follow your bliss there are dangers involved and outcomes obscured. Moving beyond the ancestry familiar into the land of unchartered and unknown. The trek foraging for ground and paving the way to the new is never tread lightly but with a sure foot of hope and care towards ones’ destiny and for all destinies to come.
Later in the day...
I ran my second Earthfare 5k today and did better. Did a lot better! As I was running I kept me eye on my shadow which was in front of me. Just where it needed to be. I think I placed 4th for my age group. Not bad, I reflected as I started the walk home. My neighbor Suzanne had dropped me off earlier so I was without my car. Walking the mile or two towards home I had my hands full with the freebies of coconut water and quinoa chips and other stuff. I walked up the hill past the projects, a poorer section of town.
A man was sitting on a bench as I crossed by and looked over to me and said, Whatyougot there? He gazed curiously at the box I was carrying. “Food,” I smiled, “I ran a race.” “You win?” No, but I had fun and I did well.” Another smile from me, but he had already looked away his mind elsewhere. I wasn’t a winner, story over it seemed. As I walked on I felt happy and contentment and thought to myself about my path and the steps I am taking in my life now and how if the path was safe then it really wouldn’t be very interesting at all. It is perfect just as it is.
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